It’s over before it starts The blisters begin to smart “Someone save me from myself” Thumb out on the highway, baiting Lust or bust and I hate waiting “Someone save me…” I gotta make it Gotta make it fast Red lights, red lights, red lights Flash! “Someone save me from myself” Gotta make it out and see who I’m versus I’m such a slave to my burgeoning urges I get to the end I always say “It wasn’t fucking worth it!” We don’t dream anymore

I reach for my car keys before my apartment keys I think it’s my conscience telling me subconsciously to leave I’ve been sleeping on a sofa I inherited from my parents And I’m embarrassed to even admit how many nights I haven’t slept I’m inept and this degree ain’t getting me anywhere But more in debt, in doubt, in crippling despair I wish I was rich enough to have an addiction But I can’t afford nicotine, I’m in while all my friends are having fun I’ve been waking up with bedbug bites and I can’t afford to fix it And every paycheque is getting spent on minimum payments on my debt And then my rent, and I’m broke again and I’m trying not to let on That ever since I left home it’s all been going wrong My dreams are keeping me up at night Red eyes to the ceiling ‘til my alarm beckons in the sunlight Since the day I escaped, I’ve dreamed of being free Sometimes it feels like the motions are going through me Debts, doubts, discouragement From folks I love and trust and my pessimistic conscience All my accomplishments Were so long ago I wonder if they ever happened Debts, doubts, discouragement From folks I love and trust and my pessimistic conscience Nostalgic for imprisonment Living just to wake up until the day I don’t I reach for my car keys before my apartment keys I think it’s my conscience telling me subconsciously to leave…

How do sober people meet? This feels impossible without a drink Asking for water in a darkened bar Nourishing my poor parched heart My liver loves me but my lovers leave me Another lonely year might kill me Party girl left me for a party boy “He’s a little more her speed” “You need single malt courage to feel normal again Just to say ‘hi’ to lifelong friends” I’ve forgotten how to converse I’m a stuttering wreck with nothing to say It’s hard to hear from your old friends “We liked you better when you drank” Words are tripping over my tongue I’m just mumbling lines in a marbled mouth I’m making myself uncomfortable “Simple human pleasures you will never figure out” I can’t dance, I just stumble rhythmically My balance is terrible but I’m not drunk, just dizzy All my friends think I’ve fallen off again But the music is so loud it helps me to forget... The ice is melting in my glass A promise held tight in my cold hands Exile myself to a corner in the back Anxiety is eating me I used to make fun of addicts Until I realized I need Alcohol! Nicotine! Caffeine! Dopamine! Just to get through a basic week My heart is torn between depressants and stimulants It might give out before the band finishes their set But ‘til then… I can’t dance, I just stumble rhythmically My balance is terrible but I’m not drunk, just dizzy All my friends think I’ve fallen off again But the music is so loud it helps me to forget.. That I can’t dance and someday we’re all gonna die So this gesture is useless but goddamn it I’m gonna try Life is a fight to the death, you’ll never win but keep on swinging Smile defiantly at the abyss and it’ll feel something like bliss